I hate being jealous. It’s not that I don’t trust him. I do. I just don’t know why I even get stupid jealous feelings in the first place. I hate it. I hate that I even get like that. I love him and trust him. The fuck is wrong with me? Sometimes I really do hate myself.
Ahh I’m sick. I caught a cold from being out in the rain on Monday. I slept for 18 hours yesterday lol I woke up really hungry today. I bought myself a burger and couldn’t wait to eat it. I get home and feast…. turns out I can’t even taste it. I’m still; sick, I CAN’T TASTE MY FOOD. WHYYYYYYYYYYY. Waste of a fatburger. Sad sarabear.
My mom is learning how to text message lmao She sent me this today. She couldn’t even finish spelling my name correctly cause she got too excited to press send LOL oh that mama sue.
My mom and my sisters just left to go to Thailand. I was going to go last minute but then realized my passport was just about to expire. Sigh. It’s going to be lonely without my mamma sue. I am such a mama’s girl. She told me she was going to bring me back a bunch of stuff from thailand. *excitement* She’s going to be gone for 3 weeks, so during that time I plan on painting the den and the kitchen and then re-doing my bathroom. Going to paint my bathroom a more personal color instead of the yucky mint green toothpaste color it is now and I also plan on buying a bunch of bathroom accessories from daiso and making it super cute. EHEHEHEHE.
I don’t think you realize that you actually do hurt me sometimes with the things you say. Look at me. What have I done to deserve it? Words cut through me. Pain. Not just any words but your words. I hold you high and close to my heart. Family. If you were watching me go through this from a different view what would you tell me? would you tell me to just take it and stay quiet? People can often give advice but can never seem to take their own.
I usually hate wrapping christmas presents because they always come out ugly no matter what :( this year I tried my best lol they still suck but I enjoyed myself this time. This is about as far as I got before I quit to play league of legends lol!
My purchase from black friday came today :3 got myself these and got my babe some sennheisers. I’m such a keeper hehehe
I hate having dreams that hurt. I was crying really hard in the dream and I hate that. Oh yeah and towards the end Selena Gomez popped up and asked me to be a bratz doll. The hell are these dreams I’m having lol.
So I bought my babe’s christmas present early! I thought it was going to be over my 200 limit with tax and stuff but I had a 10 dollar coupon so hooray! I’m so pleased. I la la la love my hunnie to pieces and I hope he’s happy when he receives it. Other than that I didn’t really get to do black friday shopping. I mean I can still go now but I don’t think I want to. What I really want is starbucks though. Why does my starbucks have to be in between a target and a bestbuy.
My neighbor is starting to annoy me. He’s been bugging for my skype id for days. I told him if I use skype its only with my darling. He still doesn’t get it though. Still tries to ask me for it. why why whyyyy.
i love napping in the rain during the daytime. I like to leave my curtains open and stare out and then wake up to gloomy weather. I love gloomy weather. I enjoy hot chocolate, and coffee much more in this weather. Had dinner with linh and cinnamon last night for cin’s bday. We did a little shopping, then we ate a fat, glorious meal at phoenix:
and then afterwards we shopped some more! Came home and did not expect lover to give me some quality time lol after I was giving him a hard time the night before lol but it seems that he does listen to me. I love him for that. La la la la la love him.
Mamma knows when something is bothering me. I’ve always been a night owl so when I go to bed really early with no reason to wake up early the next day, it means I’m pissed off and I just want to go lay in bed and not be bothered. My bed is my hide out. I went to sleep early and woke up at 6. I smelled coffee downstairs and there she was hanging out with pocky on the couch. She took me out to breakfast :3 I told her little things were bothering me. She said not to let it get to me, that if I am going to get mad, get mad over something big! lol We ate at IHOP. Every time I go there she has to tell me the damn story of how I used to call IHOP the blue house when I was a little girl. She also reminds me that I was an uncontrollable child and would walk to all the tables saying hi to everyone until the waitress told my parents to keep me at the table or we’d have to leave. OHOHOHO. She reminds me of this every IHOP visit. sigh. She did make me feel better though. I’m still a little bothered by things, but I’m sure I can sleep it off.
me: mama I want soymilk and I’m too sick to drive myself to buy some
mama: it’s too late its 11pm
me: okay :(
5 mins later
mama: lets go to the market I want ice cream
me: wtf lol
Did not get enough sleep last night. Woke up extremely early today to go somewhere. Came home only to find out I had to leave the house again. Sigh. Fell asleep. I think I’ve been playing way too much League of Legends. I had a dream I was playing Soraka and I had 4 rod of ages, boots, and a death cap lol wtf kind of dream is this. Who does that?!?
Last night was nice. Linh came to see me and it was fun. Starbucks, noodles and shopping. She doesn’t press me for answers when stuff isn’t going right in my world. I like that. So I’m ok with just hanging out and being in her company. We bought star wars friendship folders. Yes. Matching star wars folders. We are that nerdy. Got one for cinnamon too. It was packed at starbucks so we had to sit on the ledge outside. There was a guy that had a table to himself and 3 chairs. 1 guy 3 chairs. He kept looking up and staring at us so I was hoping he would just give us his damn chairs. He doesn’t need them, but I didn’t want to talk to him lol so I was looking at linh like “is he gonna give us the fucking chairs?” but nope. He didn’t give us the fucking chairs. He just had a staring problem. He kept those chairs for himself, one for his feet and the other for decoration. Linh was getting irritated and about to ask him “can I help you with something?” his staring was that awkward. Fuck that guy for not giving us the chairs, because of him linh sat on bird poop loool. I’m so sleepy. I haven’t been sleeping well. I miss my lover. I miss himmmmmm. Oh man I miss him.